what the hell? i sound like a freaking spoiled brat. sorry pple. i think i was really offensie. must be on pms. heh. coz i know even if i really got to watch van hellsing now, i'm not going to be glad about it. haha.

somehow, it just ceased being just about van hellsing, for just those short moments. and i felt just sian. well well.

haha, but that's how it is with girls. one moment they're fine, one moment they're not and the enxt, they're fine again.

haha.

i know i shouldn't be complaining. i know i should compromise. i know i should take changes in my schedule with grace. i know i should accept other's views. i know i should not insist on having my way.

that's why i ain't. why am i so sianified then? only less than half an hour ago, i told someone i was in high spirits.

i think i'm too used to getting my way around things. pampered. spoiled.

miao. i want to watch van hellsing.

okay. so maybe i'm not going to watch van hellsing after all. somehow i'm not disappointed. really.

slacker

the hols are almost here... actually, the hols are practically here. coz we're doing mep this week... hmm. let's see. what's happened.

went to suntec for troy with the nels last friday. kinda didn't work out very well la... haiz. then in the end they didn't get the tickets also. so went and hung around the fountain the evening, just hanging out. feels nice you know, to just relax. then me and jieying made a dedication, but i think we totally missed it. haha, quite stupid. haha. then saturday went down to PA, but there was like, little people again la, so feel very stupid. they tell me this sat there should be more people. there better be. and me and joyce still have that silly cupboard to move. wah. can die. haha. then went for the prerelease for fifth dawn on sunday. haha. so long never see kel feel very happy to see him around again. if you're reading this, kor, feel flattered hor. didn't do too badly, won two, lost one and drew one. but then, my deck was chpped up and rebuilt by kel la, and supposedly i should have won all four rounds. haha. feel stupid again. haha. then that evening went to listen to the hcjc choir's concert. hm. very nice.

anyone got any lobang for vjc's choir concert?

then monday and tuesday we did fencing. haha. fencing was niiiiiiiiiiiice didn't get jabbed too badly. haha. if fencing had been a cca, i'd have taken it up. maybe as a second cca. but then, this may be just a temporary passion. after all, i attribute my backache to fencing. painful leh. and my right deltoid is still tense. hm.

wednesday went to joseph's place for pw with amanda and zhihua. a bit inefficient. spent the whole morning deciding on the survey questions. never thought survey questions could be so difficult to come up with. then went ice-skating. wah. got abandonned by jieying and yuxi. the best la, from class outing to what... call a two people outing a class outing? funny lor.

haha, not pissed la, just doesn't feel that great to be enthu about something only to get cold water poured all over you. i mean, at least a four people group outing would be nice. but well, did a bit of running arond, so that was fine by me. when i was there, i didn't mind that much. must be something about the ice, yes? in fact i had quite a lot of fun. but then when i sat down and thought it out, it didn't say a lot about the class... hey jieying, yuxi, no offense yes? i'm not referring to you guys. you tried your best. i know.

now i'm skeptical about any future "class" outings.

hm.

feel very slack now. and the worst thing is, i can't/don't feel like doing anything about it. i haven't started any revision for the block tests. my chem tutorial is still sitting on my desk, almost complete. the problem is, it's ALMOST complete. and it was due three days ago. and i'm letting it stay on my table with only two questions undone. clever right?

then i'm not exercising as well. my knee hurts from a bad fall. my back aches from fencing. my heel hurts when i walk because of a blister. my shin still has scabs from previous falls. my palm has a bad bruise on it from attempting to break a fall on ice, at high speed. clever. i think i'm too accident-prone. at least i've broken my two-year legacy of tearing my ankle ligament in early april/late march.

had archery today. super inconsistent. i tink it's because my arm too weak. by half the lesson today, my arm was aching a bit and my fingers cannot make it le. haha. had a lot of beginner's luck though. first and second shot were only one ring away from the bull's eye. haha, made three holes in the canvas. didn't do too badly la. an average of five points per shot [hopefully]. haha.

don't understand why people want to pon arcery leh. quite nice what. haha. but fingers very very very painful... haha, couldn't flex my fingers properly after the entire session.

hm. finally going to catch van hellsing tomorrow with JD. haha. so slow. about two/three weeks behind everyone. and troy. didn't catch it with my parents. didn't catch it with the nels. and JD watch le. *pout* now got to search for someone to watch with. shieh yuan? gumi? PA people? anyone? haha.

ultra sianifying to go for movies alone sia. haha. try to squeeze a day out of my parents during the hols. they said they were interested. haha. but think about this some other day la.








"it's just me. i seem to be dropping into a cold dark wet place, where no one's been and no one can ever follow. there's no future therel just a past that sometimes fools you into thinking it's the future. it's the most alone place you can ever be, and when you go there, you not only cease to exist in real life, you also cease to exist in their consciousness and their memories." -- pretty, isn't it?