super sian diao

hey! i'm back and alive and busy. like a bumble bee. busy busy bumble bee.

i think i'm going mad le. today super sian diao. can't tell right? of course la, angela always so cheerful, where got super sian one? i think maei knows better lor. when is a high needed? when a person is low. so when is high presnted? when a person is low. so there. so i guess i was alternating between low highs and high highs today. and when i'm having no high, i guess that's when i'm like really emotionally stable.

today, i missed PA practice again. why? forever because of yltc la. not that i dsliked yl-nite preparation. in fact i love it. but it's starting to encroach on my time. for school CO prac and for PAYCO prac. i think i'm kind of irresponsible la, i mean, i am irresponsible la, but i _just couldn't help it_ [dove style].

then today was dance prac. so we had to learn this new dance. and practice the old dance. old dance prac was very smooth. then when we moved on to new dance prac, it was like...

*dance* *dance dance* *dance dance dance*

[not really dance, but then to save myself the embarassment and trouble by saying trying-to-dance-but-moving-all-funny everytime i say dance...]

*dance* *loud crash* *huh?!!!*

yeah... so basically, while the girls were going to start on the girls' part for the new dance, jianda he try to be clever la and jump to touch the glass lamp cover, thinking that it was plastic. apparently, it shattered. then it was like damn scary lor, he got cuts on his face, hands, leg, and back. very scary. then it was when the blood start coming out of the wounds then it got freaky. like you know, small dribbles of blood on the forehead, bloody fingertips...

haiz, then we started the cleanup. after which a who;e chain of stuff happened which i do not care to elaborate. then i got very sian diao.

so i was very sian diao. then i induced a high in myself. then now i'm even more sian diao, coz high induction takes a lot out of you. saturdays are like, a curse. so are fridays. curses.

haiz, maybe i should have gone down to PA instead of staying back for practice.

hm. then had the research symposium thing today. nothing really much to elaborate on it. just that everyone turned up in the hwa chong school u, then quite funny. very odd to see so many people. i think i finally cannot take it le, today wore my uniform tucked out and folded in the whole day. haiz. feel quite guilty la. never did wear my uniform like that before.

just in case you people don't know what yl-nite is, it's like this informal-formal dinner kind of thing. then we nelchaenens are in charge of organising it, as in, booking the place, getting the food, planning the programme, hosting the programme, preparing and carrying out the programme, PAY for the whole thing. so it's understandable i think, that i'm really quite broke now... haiz. rather sian-i-fying to think about it. and since it's of this nature, it's like time-sapping also lor. every morning before assembly, we'd gather at the nel-bench. everyday after school, we'll meet up. okay, almost everyday after school, for the whole nelchaenen. and literally everyday after shcool, within the small bunch of i/c's for the whatever-committee. so i'm in the programme-com, then am the i/c [with meishi] for the skit and am one of the four hosts for the programme; am a sub-publicity-com member also. then apart from the meetings and stuff, we have dance practices every few days. then the skit rehearsals will start coming in very soon. then PAYCO-performance is in july, HJC-CO performance is in APRIL... like WTF?!! and not to mention photog meetings... i think i'm going to die. but if i die, i'm going to die enjoying myself.

but whatever joy will have to be postponed as well. right now, i'm just ultra sian diao.






"there's Music in the air,
when the infant morn is nigh.
and faint it's blush is seen,
on the bright and laughing sky.
many a harp's ecstatic sound with the thrill of joy profound;
when beneath some grateful shade,
sorrow's aching head is laid.
while we list enchanted there,
to the Music in the air."

haha, that was typed like... 15? days ago... haha.

post-YLTC syndrome

yoz. haiz... missing yltc like hell. maybe coz it's such a good method of escapism. no need to face that looming mount of homework, soon to start avalanching... haiz. and our campfire was quite a flop... sianz.

[day four]
day four was quite fine. for at least the first part lah. haha. morning PT i had to skip. did the upper body exercises, but was so so shag from the sentry duty or smth that i feel asleep doing the PT that was supposed to wake me up. i mean, hello, up outside the auditorium in the dark with the cool morning breeze brushing by your ears and the light air embracing you, won't you want to sleep as well? haha.

recreation

recreation was basically split into two parts, dance and telematches. dance... was the nelchaenen dance that we were supposed to present during the campfire. haha, i missed the most important session, that was the chorus section. wah. cao complicated... the chorus i couldn't do sia. then i was doing the guys solo part as well, which i also missed. so all the tough tough bits i missed. then i couldn't do a single move without looking at instructor jizheng. haha, he damn zai. i mean, quoting jianda, he's not the dancer kind of person, but he takes his moves very seriously, and so he executes them very well. yeah. i totally agree with him. and he dances with a lot of energy and life. haha. then a while after that when we were learning a quite complicated bit, some of us were dragged off to see mr lock. haiz. that meeting was quite depressing. like, three people got sent home. and justin was already lying on a hospital bed... haiz... so sian. i was forced to book out the next day, that's land ex day, which explains the previous post. haha. then when we fell back in, they had finished learning the dance. so effectively, i didn't learn the dance at all... quite shitty lah, haha, even sebastian could dance better.

then after that we had telematches. like, what the hell... me and wuhui were the only navajos around. then we were playing against the shawnees and the commanches, strength 9 and 8 respectively. siao. the first round was that everyone in the team had to join their legs together and transport a bowl of water over a distance, from one pail to another and the amount of water trasported will be used to judge who wins. haha, at first i thought nava definitely win one, coz we were the only team that could walk. then wah, the other two teams just formed a human chain and da da da... they just passed one bowl of water after another. haha, and me and wuhui were like...

angela and wuhui: in, out, in, out...

[after ten minutes]

angela and wuhui: in... out, in... out, in...

haha, even the commands were said in a limping way, coz really damn pain leh... kaoz. but haha, it was quite interesting lah. we managed to get 17 bowls. shawnees won with 23.5 bowls and commanches were first runner-up with 22 bowls... haha.

then the second round was the caterpillar walk. haha, this one got nothing to say, me and wuhui won, hands down. [for those who know the caterpillar walk, we did win with hands down. literally, haha. not funny.] then we quite mean also, wait like, a step away from the finishing line for the rest. haha.

then the third round was satay soccer. that one the instructors came in and played with us. basically, the point was to tie everyone's legs together and play soccer in a line... haha. quite silly. at first, we were like leading. then coz instructor yujin got a little confident then tapped the ball so lioghtly it didn't make it into the goal, then we lost lah. shawnees was the seeded team, so they played against the commanches only in the second round. but the commanches won anyway. haha, lingyong was very zai.

fourth round was the one where you stood on a chair and pass an extra chair to the front then kept proceeding on that way... but whatever lah, nothing much to say. quite monotonous. then me and wuhui won, but with help from instructor shiqi, coz wuhui got blindfolded, then effectively, i was playing the game alone. so cannot move the chairs properly, so instructor shiqi had to help me move the chairs. haha, but we still won in the end.

then fifth round was the game where you tie one balloon to your ankle then you're supposed to step on other people's balloon... haha, i was made to sit out, coz there was quite a bit of running around to do. but they very cheat money one. haha. coz they were like, everyone, blow up your balloons. as big as possible. there'll be something good in store for the one with the biggest balloon. so everyone blew their balloons up as big as possible. haha. you can imagine it when they were supposed to tie it to their ankles. haha. so many balloons burst even before they were put into play. haha.

then the last round was poison ball, got nothing much to say also, only that libin was very zai. she was one of the two people remaining, and the last girl at that. haha. damn nice. i knocked meishi out of poison ball round. only one person... haiz.

rock climbing

went to this place called climb adventure to climb the walls. very cool, indoor air-conditioned wall-climbing rocks man. haha. i didn't get to climb, but i belayed quite a few people. haha. and i almost killed jianda twice when i belayed him, then let him come down at almost freefall. haha, he got a bit freaked, but i didn't see the problem lah. when i belayed zhi an, she kept asking me to let her down faster. haha. then abseiling was fun too. at first i wasn't allowed to abseil. but then i was allowed to, under the monitoring of miss chen (or smth). then i thought must be guai, so i slowly let myself down. haiz. i think she must think i got no skill, so she didn't allow me to climb even the basic wall. at first she said if i could abseil properly, she'd consider letting me climb. so i think i screwed things up for myself. abseiled a second time. haha, this time i did it the almost freefall way. cao shuang. haha.

survival

this was a mini solo... wah, quite shi bai. haha. we weren't allowed to communicate and we were supposed to build this pasha (is that how it's spelt? i don't know what word that is...) thing and cook our own dinner. haiz. wah, i didn't know how to build a proper pasha, neither did wuhui, but she was quite lucky, coz she got the parallel bars area, se she just draped her poncho over the bars and sat under that. i had to erect a real pasha, so i mimicked shiwei's. haha, that was quite successful. then we had to write a letter to ourselves. that letter of mine ah, til now still incomplete lah. haha. then we were supposed to write postcards to the pple in our group. then i couldn't finish writing, so i finished writing them at home the next day. haha. then comes the cooking. wah kao. wuhui had to go off first, then me, then shiwei. wah, he was the last one to start the activity, but he was the first (and only one) to start a fire... haiz. for me and wuhui, our fire couldn't even start with the help of our instructors... so shi bai. like, me and shiqi squatted at my fire for so long man, then we thought it was a problem with materials. but it was a problem with technique. wah... really flopped like siao. then in the end, me and wuhui had to cook with shiwei's fire... hm. jianda's fire started very successfully as well. then i heard him say that jang's fire totally trashed everyone else's. one match and the fire was roaring. wah. even meishi had a more or less decent fire... make me feel so inferior... haiz.

then we had land ex packing. which was cao slack compared to sea ex packing. we didn't even have counts for packing lor. and the guys are damn pathetic. had to borrow like ten shirts from the girls lor. one of my shirts (jasmine's) had to be lent to them. they better return it to me in good condition man. or else. then after that, there was a slight overlook on the commanches part, which set huifen off in a rage. kaoz. damn damn scary.

[day five]
slacked at home.

[day six]
haha, yesterday was quite good... all the way until the end of the day lah.

packing up

packing up was done crazily.

huifen: in ten minutes time i don't want to see anymore personal items anywhere!
girls: *shoved everything into semi-empty/empty bags and justy brought them downstairs*

so basically, none of our bags carried our own stuff... haha. so we're going back to school tomorrow to exchange clothes. haha. quite a fun experience. then we ended up doing things too slowly and inefficiently that we owed a few hundred more counts, totalling up to 5241 counts, i think... not sure. but it's 5000++ counts lah. haha. quite scary, the number of counts. the girls' dorm counts itself totalled 999 counts, and the males' 750 counts. haiz. haha. then we had area cleaning. funny, i seriously don't recall cleaning the cafeteria... oh. i remember... i was counting ponchos and waterbottles and water pouches and belts. wah. scare me. we lost 6 ponchos, that we later found out was accounted for by instructor huifen. then the 'lost' jungle belt was found. haiz. so we owed fifty counts for nothing. hm. then cleaning tents everything was quite fun. i mean very fun. haha. miss camp so much... even miss the dorm checks.

mass repay

then finally came the time for the last mass repay. haiz. for the first set, they held in a sort of pumping position. the one where their entire weight was resting on their forearms and toes and tgheir body was kep parallel to the ground. that i had to sit out, naturally. then i was doing zha ma in one corner. then the second set was more, if only because i could do it. but quite scary. coz all of us had to zha ma for a very long time. basically, we formed a line, then everyone zha ma, then the person right that the end does the leopard crawl between everone else's legs. at first got a few people feel quite humiliated, but then, after a scolding from instructor ze min, none dared to raise any opinion. haiz. haha. nothing much lah, i think, it's punichment lor, what can you expect. then i think i didn't do the zha ma right. i was (i think) already one of the more standard ones le, maintain 90 degrees... then the instructors were like, no, if you do the standard ones at most can hang on for two or three minutes only. if you're not collapsing on the ground, you have been slacking. like, what the hell... so what if we've got better endurance? then the third set, we each found a partner, then is like, one person does zha ma and supports the partners legs, then the other one does pumping. quite siao. i thought i could at least do the zha ma part. but no, cozs i think meishi's arms too short (kidding... don't kill me) then i had to go ultra low, like 60 degrees, 70 degrees to support her weight... then i had been doing zha ma for six days straight while the rest did pumping, crunchers and what not, so it was quite shit, then my quads almost cramped up and i had to be dragged out of the formation. haiz... so sian, couldn't even participate in the last set of the repay. then i think jang also got dragged out. so we went around supporting other people. like, doing zha ma with one leg beneath the person's thigh then the person can put some weight on you. i tried that with audrey, then she was so damn heavy. but nvm, we all pulled through. at least i wen xing wu kui. i lugged my weight.

campfire

hm. me and jianda were sabotaged to be campfire i/c's... haiz. then i co-ordinated the campfire events with the batch and the campfire planning started. haiz. the guys were damn disruptive lor. haha. kailing had to threaten to not distribute food until they listened to my presentation of the flow of events. haha. quite funny, see her threatening the guys with food, and the way she just lifted the whole bag of food away from the guys' reach. haha. then the programme was quite successfully planned lah. then we launched the campfire. started off with a speech from mr. lock, then the apaches anthem and cheer then a speech from jizheng.

jianda: thank you, apaches for your wonderful anthem and cheer.
angela: now, may we invite our very own c.m.i...
jizheng: *choke*
everyone: *laugh*
angela: i mean *laugh* c.i., no mistake what. Chief Male Instructor... to make a speech.

haha, all was fun and laughter. we did the friendship dance, the monkey dance, the chicken dance, sangs songs did cheers and stuff....

and *roll of thunder* there was a turn of events. the 28th and 27th batch came back... at first, the instructors were playing the fool and pretending to be tense. then i think they really got a scolding, and they were like, really really stressed out lor. woah. i mean, their instructors were like four times, eight times as scarier lor. and i think the real monster wasn't there. like, junhao wasn't there. haiz. then keep seeing them mess up their roll call. and i know how scary they were -- they scolded the instructors through me, when me and jianda went to welcome them in. kaoz. cao scary. i think i must have told him that like twenty thrity times over or smth. then i think instructor hui hui had a breakdown and was crying, so instructor zhengwei was cao pissed. haiz. then before all that lecturing and stuff, the nelchaenens had to perform our dance, which we totally screwed up, coz we couldn't remember our moves at all. some of us, like me, didn't even know the moves in the first place... then the instructors performed their dance, then their roll call...

seniors: what is this? are you trying to tell us that your trainees all wear their caps lopsided?
instructors: no instructor zhen zhen!
seniors: then? what do you do?
instructors: permission to adjust instructor zhen zhen!
senior: am i the only instructor around?!
instructors: permission to adjust, ma'ams and sirs!
seniors: two counts!

basically the same procedure. but they were much much scarier... haiz. and our instructors damn fast lor. not like us. i feel so shitty, like, what are the nelchaenens doing?! complaining about something that is not at all scary. like shen1 zai4 fu2 zhong1 bu4 zhi1 fu2 liddat. haiz. then the guys can still laugh sommore. at first it was a bit funny lah. but then it's not funny at all. haiz.

then after everything, me and jianda we had to continue on with the campfire. kinda stressed lah, coz lost that cheerful light mood le mah. then at first was quite difficult to get the ball rolling. then after that we did the chicka cha thing, then the grand seniors came out to do. wah siao bo. they were like ultra-extreme lor. so pro. zhe min, you have to hide in shame le lah... haiz. i think the chicka cha yi2 dai4 bu4 ru2 yi2 dai4... then after that we had like, the passing of the candle flame. quite sad. the 30th batch had to pass with the 27th and 28th... the 29th... coz they were still emotionally unstable, i heard, so they didn't join us. quite saddening that our campfire had to end this way.

wah. then crazier still, the news that the three armed robbers might be on mainland singapore spread, then we were all shuttled off in fifteen minutes. like what the hell. first the seniors then the armed robbers. kaoz. damn suay. like our campfire came to an abrupt and unhappy end lah, i think. pm was postponed. haiz. so everybody very sian diao. then meishi not very happy that shawnees only got best spirit, didn't get best group. comanches got best group. then she was a bit agitated. then i was a bit agitated, coz of the campfire. then on the way back a bit tense, then quite sian also. so.. yeah.

that marks the end of the camping days of the yltc.

haha, then today, we went back to school to exchange clothes. wah, the exchange was quite haha, indescribable. everyone was so... open. shall not elaborate. haha. leave you all in suspense. haha.