'ello...

was just playing a few random pieces of music on the piano before i finally decided to come online to blog... haven't seen my blog for a few days...

oh, i was just reminded of a very nice song, the lyrics of which i'll type in the space i usually reserve for quotes... if anyone realises that i actually type a couple of quotes in...

hm. the past few days have been rather boring... rendered to some funny bed that moves at a touch of buttons on the side panel, with siderails that are supposed to prevent pple from falling off the bed... sigh. i was like put under bed arrest.

wednesday was waiting day. went to the admission office and waited til i could be 'recieved' be the receptionist. then went to block 4 ward 44 and waited til the nurse could take my height and weight. then waited in the waiting room til the doctor could insert a one and a half inch needle into my fist and remove some blood and leave the needle in there. and stuff. you get the idea. soon after, mummy left to go marina south then i was all alone with nothing to do, so i put some music on and just seh around. coz there was no B2 bed available, i got to stay in a B1 room. which wasn't very much for the better since it practically freeze at night... then later, jianda came to visit and just slacked around until lights out and he was almost driven away. haha. then he left tigger with me, which was a good thing, since i was short of smth to torture *snigger*.

then thursday morning i learnt how to shower with one hand, and very soon had to don the operation gown. which is incidentally just a blue piece of cloth fastened by five strings at the back. or ribbons. whatever you call them. then was wheeled away on some kind of bed to this corridor of lab like rooms that they call operating theatres. the nurse was right. it looks like a lab more than a theatre. no seats or stages.

senior doc: attach that three-way tap on her drip.
doc: no prob.
senior doc: attach another.
doc: no prob.
doc the second: i need an extension.
doc: no prob.

and he attached and detached so many things from that one and half inch long needle that my hand was immune to pain before i was even put to sleep.

senior doc: let me calm my nerves first... *walks over* girl, you cannot panic hor. if you panic, i panic. if you stay calm, i stay calm.

like WTF?!

senior doc: which idiot put the two three-way taps together? i wanted one at each end of the extension! that was the idea... now...
angela: i think it was that young doc chua or smth...
senior doc: hai yah. so stupid. and fix so tightly. spoil my equipment only.

said doc was out of the room coz young male doctors were not allowed in the room when young female patient is being stripped down and covered with wires...

then i was put on anaesthesia and slept.

woke up hyperventilating with an oxygen mask pressed on my face. then i hink i started crying and cried nonstop until i got back to the ward. kaoz. like baby like that. then mum had to feed me both lunch and dinner... just like a kid. then i was taken off drip and slept until the evening. then shieh yuan and shimmie wanted to visit, but i couldn't strike jianda's name off the visitors' list anymore... so mummy had to go down to take the fruits and card from them. and homework as well... then mummy they all left and jianda came... slacked around somemore. then finally for the first time that entire day, i was allowed to step out of bed to pee... siao bo... then the nurse, asked within the privacy of the washroom... "is he your boyfriend?" like what the hell. incidentally, the security guard asked jianda if he was visiting his girlfriend. *major sweat*

then come friday, i was discharged. went home with tigger. couldn't wlk properly and had to waddle around at first, but got used to the sore... then stuck around at home the whole day. then saturday also, but the housearrest was lifted and am going to the school dramafeste later. hm... then tml going for the fac outing. incidentally, the class fac prince nominee is kasster. hm. and i bet i was chosen only because i was absent on the day they were supposed to choose a fac princess *dies*. they better not make me do anything embarrassing.

ciao.






just my favourite verse from 守候 -- the theme song of 新绝代双骄三.

"迷离的夜
飘香着无边尽入的旋律
在耳边旋绕不停
能不能 载着思绪的雨
带我找你
就算是梦想也罢
宁愿寂寞敌弃自由
怎样也想了抓住你的手
春夏秋冬 你的承诺
我会守候."

stayed back til eight plus in school today, and settled everything needed for the pre-camps. yay. and like, five out of seven pple turned up. tonight was quite fun, they quite on lah, as compared to previous times. only. it takes forever to settle down and start a proper discussion. then meishi and her group and jianda stayed back too, so we had quite a small crowd working together... finally got the flag and scarves settled. and they look good kay. silver, green and black is a NICE combi. affirmative. basically because green is a nice colour.

hm. and someone decided to play a prank with naifen's name and drew a broken heart next to it on the s6 fac board, right next to my name, which is, for no rhyme or reason under nomination for fac princess... meishi thinks they are going to make me juggle. forget it. since angela isn't on my i/c, i'll just deny anything that they throw to me if need be.

and yes, i'm starting to feel odd about tml's admission. maybe a bit scared. but i think it'll go away. i hope.







"i disapprove of what you say, but will defend to the death your right to say it."

[there is a prequel to this post right below it, just in case you only notice you've read it in the wrong order after you finish reading it. but it's not like it makes a diff...]

on with the blog... hm, not exactly home now, still in school... in computing class... but what i'm doing, blogging in computing class, it's another matter le lah...

hm, yeah, i almost sub-ed lydia for the debates on monday, but thankfully, i didn't... had so much to do on sunday evening. sat at the desk [father's desk...] for the entire evening and mugged away. goodness, i'm turning so muggish. haiz. what to do? what to do... don't mug will fall behind. hm, for the debates, we didn't win, but eunice got the best speaker. it's a pretty good debate, considering they had one GEP-er and one debator in their team. we lost out by only four marks an the crossfire was damn close... one mark's difference. the motion was "THBT compensations should be paid for injustices done by past generations." wah laoz, coz our definitions were both different, the two teams were like arguing for the same cause. kaoz... and a third of the cross fire was spent on the definition of pay...

kaijie: speaking in context where compensation is paid, pay refers to payment in monetary terms. naturally, compensations would have to be in monetary terms as well.

random voice: but PAY does not necessarily mean money, right? i mean, if i PAY you a visit, does that mean i PAY money to step into your house and visit you?

angela: [maei: i wouldn't want your acne in my place. it'll be hell trying to disinfect my place after you leave.] in the context of compensations, naturally, it would be in some form of payment and by the longman dictionary, compensations are referred to in monetary terms.

random voice: since UN is the deciding authority, we should go by the UN Charter's definition of compensations.

angela: can you quote me which and what part of the UN Charter you're referring to?

random voice: it states that compensations can be made in other terms...

and it all loops back to our first argument.

and blah... but this time, we only had four members of the class dominating the crossfire... mou, was looking forward to hearing wee leong speak...

hmm, then yesterday, i went to see issac koh about the transferance for me into the econs class. coz i simply cannot understand the comp lecturer, and the programing we're doing currently, i can't understand the point of it and stuff. furthermore, my dad wanted me to take up something that might have the slightest to do with accountancy. he believes that accountants can find a job almost everywhere... and a small spring test yesterday reaffirmed that my choice to switch was correct. i display zero talent in my programming skills and will possibly flunk my coursework which is incidentally the bulk of my assessment. haha. but whatever. i'm still attending computing classes, as of now, it's just that everytime i finish writing a program for the assignment, i'll blog a little. hm.

then for YL... have i mentioned that my group is falling apart? currently, i know that three have confirmed their quitting of YLTC. then there are three more pending decisions... and i know one of them prolly will fall through... so we'll have a strength that's smaller than a few of the groups, that's 7, currently, out of the original 10. i know the smallest group this year is five. and the smallest group in history is four. four of us are painting the falg and scarves and settling some stuff today. i see a faint glimmer of hope man. i thought me and wu hui would have to do everything by ourselves... hmm. hopefully, we'll see an upturn in the way things are going... let's hope things will turn out fine and vicki won't quit, li min won't quit, bing jun won't quit, jian da won't quit... haiz...

then tomorrow, i'll be admitted to SGH for the op... i guess i do feel a little nervous... wonder how it'll be like on thursday. hope i don't throw up after i wake up. i have a tendency to cry slightly when i vomit... haha, so embarrassing.

so that's it for now. yeah.

blah.







"a star in the night and a bearer of hope, he rides to his glorious battle alone. farewell to the valiant warlord."

typing in the library once again. this is the precious block of break i get after sitting in for an econs tutorial for one out of the two breaks that i was supposed to have as a computing student. humph. [maei: hey, angela, so you've finally decided to switch over to computing huh? angela: yeah... you don't have to rub it in, ya know.] some things aren't really going too smoothly. hmm... let's start first with an update.

saturday was valentine's. nothing much really happened at PA, pple were giving out chocs and sweets, so now, i have a big collection of assorted candies and chocolates from school and PA, sitting nicely in my room, for me to munch on while mugging. not that there's much space on my desk to mug on. it's getting overcrowded with papers and stationary, so i mug at my father's desk now, occasionally messing it up so badly he would claim an atom bomb fell on it. he has yet to see my drawers. but that's beside the point. then after PA's prac, went to parkway for dinner then a walk down east coast PAVEMENT [there wasn't a beach... it was high tide...] with the s7 mugger, who apparently needed a valentine to save some face... unfortunately, we ran into yu xi and song xiang's entire class [04S60] on the beach... freaking scandalous, now, jian da's classmate's friend from s60 told his classmate and his entire class knows of our little stroll down the east coast pavement...

then went home, recieved an unexpected call and then went orh orh...

sunday morning was spent shopping for the YLTC team stuff... hmm... turns out my yl group members are less than keen to participate, but that i'll leave my second speaker, maei to cover. then after walking around baked in the sun, then roasted in the corridors looking for caps at the army market, jie ying told me she found a supplier for caps. and jian da told me thre was a sheltered shortcut to the army's market... wonderful timing. then went for JTS... kaoz, went to eat steamboat at a RESTAURANT... and it was just steamboat, not even BBQ steamboat, as they would have gotten to eat if they had gone down to chong pang... and at a lower price too. humph. hmm, then went home and mugged the entire evening away.

almost sub-ed lydia as second speaker for the debates...

shucks, the bell just went... will continue later, tonight maybe, if i return home early enough to blog...