the guys

dedicated to the guys.

THE guy.

that's me. haha. went to school today with my brand new hair cut. and shocked some people. haha. seek peng's face was damn cute... but the price i paid for that face was a few turns on the spot... haha. quite fun. then i think i looked somehow like a guy. haha. shuai desu ne. haha. ego bloated up le. can't believe this. today... wasn't much la. saw some photos taken by ming. quite cool sia. it's like, his subjects all damn tiny one, in that series. a bit the zen. then very pretty... the first picture was so well composed. looked like a mirage. but was just a road on a rainy day through a window. pretty.

the guy.

had such a long period of calm... don't know what happened man. maybe it's the equilibrium of nature. i'm sorry, didn't mean to waste your time. cheers?

the guyS.

wah, alvin and weileong very efficient... *weeps* feel so bad. only managed to collect half my batch's money... and alvin and weileong had all the rest done by this morning... wah. thank you. and i look forward to working with you guys man. 30th sea chiefs, you rock. *grinz* oh. yeah. canoe polo. looking forward to seeing what's it's like this sunday. and looking forward to one-star too. haven't really had a chance to get into the water proper after OBS... a bit sad, right? oh, and when is anyone free to go shop for handover's souvenirs? and sea chief JTS. my goodness. that'd be the third time i'd treat ninghan AND likoon. gosh. where do i find the money? money money. money money money.

e = 2.71828 18284 59045 23536... argh. can't remember anymore. haha. there's this funny e-challenge during the school's math week. supposed to memorise the entire e-sequence. haha. they provided you up til the 1341th number, inclusive of the '2'. dunno why, just suddenly felt like saying this. so incongruous.

the guys.

joseph, jiacheng, filbert. they must be the most brilliant guys in the class man. not to forget shawn, and christmas-tree king alwyn. and prolly a couple more. sorry joseph, jiacheng. best of luck for the chem o's selection test tomorrow... haha. me and chia yee decided we couldn't take it anymore. for me, i just felt stupid. so we quit. haiz. multi-factorial. yi4 shi2 ye3 jiang3 bu4 wan2. but the moment we decided to quit, i can tell you, it was like a load off. even econs lect seemed so much more enjoyable.

the pa-guys.

this includes all the guys and non-guys. haven't seen you for THREE weeks. about to make it four... coz of the kayaking course... sorry, especially to joyce. i know my infrequent attendance prolly landed you with huge stacks of scores to photocopy. thank you.

haiz.







"buzzzzzzz."

some snipping fun.

yay! cut my hair today. was quite a spur-of-the-moment thing. but i love my new hairstyle. haven't felt so light-headed for so long le... literally light-headed. when you swing your head, there's like zero resistance. totally rocks man. haha.

hm... haven't cut my hair so short that you can see my ears for so so long le. even when i did cut my hair, it was like the damn dolly kind of cut la, so now it's like a mixture between a boy's cut and a girlish cut. haha. but cannot spike, coz still a bit long, i think. downside: i've to gel my hair every morning to keep it in place. bah.

hm. i think i'm getting more and more vain. ah well, vanity is perfectly normal.

today... nothing much happened. save for the S-cube talk... and erm. oh. i finally had my long-awaited game of magic with JD. wah. kenna trashing. lousy hand man. mana jam at 4 lands both times, before i had to go off...

hm... what else happened? what? what? oh. i got back my math test. got over it le. lousy marks. carelessness. bah. got nothing to say la. the test was so damn simple lor. and i thought i'd get decent marks for once. but NO. i had to screw everything up with my carelessness. r to the power of fifteen, indeed. laughable. feel damn dumb la, despite what pple try to tell me. sometimes, there's just a fine line between polite lying and blatant sarcasm. and don't try to tell me i'm not stupid now, coz i feel stupid all the same. maybe i'll feel smarter tomorrow.

then, hmm... chem. oh yeah. chem. haven't made my notes for lect test/chem o selection test yet. somehow, i have a premonition that i'd fail this test as well, and make it a hat trick. my pw ain't coming along very well either. wah. sian diao lor. i came up with a revision agenda for the hols. then i looked at it. and i looked at it. clever la. i'd prolly spend half my hols in the library mugging away.

oh. and CANOE POLO. the 29th instructors hope we can participate in the upcoming tournaments in july. i hope so too. but where got time? and ITC. and investiture. and MAF. i have a feeling that this short period of inactivity [not planning for anything] is just the calm before the storm. but i guess it'll make my days more interesting. but definitely, i'd have less time with schoolwork. wah shit.

and that is not a good thing. coz i spend so much more time on math as compared to a couple of years ago. a bit no results reaped... wah sian. it makes me feel like i worked for nothing. maybe i'm just stupid. don't know la. makes me tired just to think about it.

man, otou-sama, i really really really pei fu you...








"all stresed up and no one to choke."

30th OAC Instructors -- Nelchaenen

over the past five days which i have failed to blog, things have happened, passed and left their marks on everyone of us.

saturday, went back to school for sports meet. was supposed to be floating official, but don't know why, float til i became a finishing judge. which sucks. big time. especially during the hundred metre dashes. parallax errors man. squinting against the sun, trying to make out who came in first when all you see is a line of people rushing towards you, and only managing to catch a glimpse of their number tags when they come close up enough to tell who's leading. bah. really great job la. then i went for lunch with the nels and had some odd packed lunch under the escalator at Far East Plaza... then when we were done jieying kind of jumped a little and banged her head on a sharp edge. so she was like, grab head. ow. and then joanna said, "oh my god, you're bleeding." and blood just literally dripped off her forehead. OUCH. and the serviettes we used to clean her head... stupid la, water proof one. tried to pour water on them, then end up water roll off the waterproof serviette onto my waterproof shorts onto the waterproof bag. great lor. and all the time, jieying was like as if nothing happened. gosh. i think OAC really means OAC. anything done indoors will have hazardous results. look at what happened to jianda the last time we had some dance session...

hmm... then i went down to renxie, but there was NO ONE there. and no one had the courtesy to tell me before hand that cchsmco had a concert that afternoon. thanks a lot lor. make me go all the way down to see this funny newbie, mingwei, harry and two other weird girls. thanks a lot man. then went for RJCO concert. saw zhineng-daddy there. and gawd, how i miss yiting. haiz. and i suddenly saw how much i missed chinese orchestra activities... missed all those endless concerts and endless practices, those suppers and rehearsals. those laughter. i mean, is till get laughter. and similarly as pleasant. but it was just different. not the PAYCO laughter. not the familiar familiar PAYCO people. and i found that i missed them more than anything. but CCA commitments... never had i abstained from PA pracs so much. NEVER. EVER. not even through my O's.

then friday we had our entry elections. had to vote for 20 out of 27 people running for OAC entry. 23 made it. i mean, this isn't fair. the un-enthu had left, dropped out. the ones left were core people. hardcore nels. and four had to GO. and least expected of all, serene. and i had been lucky. navajos had remained intact. and at that i feel guilty. we were the only ones to have remained intact after the chopping knife called JAE. then we were commited enough to stick right through and past the elections. the results came out yesterday. meishi was a bit devastated. okay, more than a bit.

then today, we had post-elections. CI and ACI this batch is jieying and sebastian respectively. then meishi felt damn shitted, coz che didn't make it for QM. and she wanted so badly to get it... read her blog. sounded like she almost cried. feel damn upset for her as well... she got her second choice, but then again, for her, it was somehow QM or none. and everything else was none. plus the QM people were her gang. not that the nels are cliqued or anything. but yeah, the people she mixed with the most. and i try to empathise. but i don't know how she took to it.
she's our current land chief. and PTI. (and PTI... haiz. i wanted to make it for PTI, but it's just as well she got it, hopefully it's some consolation)

jianda didn't make it for sea chief. and he so wanted to. gawd. and i felt so guilty. so so guilty. and it was as if my very presence might just imply spite. he told me to try to empathise... i did. i tried to. and still... he just sounded hurt. at my efforts at consolation. if you happen to be reading this, lax, kay? i meant no offense...

but somehow, there's this nagging feeling that i'd sound damn feng ci if i so much as try to comfort another who didn't make it for their desired post. [i made it for sea chief. prolly by default, since i was the only girl running for it...] i felt happy for myself. and at the same time, i felt sad for them. and their responses... they prick a little. i figure i wasn't a suitable person to talk to them. afterall, i got what i wanted, didn't i? "you happy can le... why care about me?" thanks...








"but soon enough, you're gonna think of me... and how i used to be."