after a prompt by mingwei on what... thursday? i went to have a look at my old blog. he said nothing happy ever got recorded there... haha. it was pretty depressing lah. but it ain't that bad, kay?

yesterday was the much anticipated first day of school. hopes of at least an interesting acdemic orientation completely dashed man. sitting in the auditorium from eight to four thirty indeed, with only two breaks in between. then i believe monday will be quite the same. the school days are long.

oh oh, we opted for our subject combi's... i chose to do physics chemistry c maths and computing... no backing out now. all i can do is pray and pray that there are sufficient people to form a class of at least 15. if not, i'll have to do economics, which i'm not too keen on.

then yesterday was mostly that lah...

today, bright and early in the morning, we left home to go for jimmy-niichan's wedding. more like the tea ceremony... the dinner's tomorrow. quite nice. but during the spare time we had, jason, sharon, wei wei, xue li and i ended up playing bridge and dai di lah... haha. it's always like this. then when we all split, jason, sharon, wei wei and i went ice skating. nothing really interesting happened. haha, just this one thing. haha. think about it still very funny. there was this bunch of about three guys who rushed out suddenly in front of me as i slowly skated over to the sides... so i crashed into one of them, almost lost my balance, grabbed the shortest guy's arm and regained my balance and held on to it until he regained his... so after his struggle to stand, his face was quite red... dunno is blushing or exertion... it was filed aside. until when we were about to leave, sharon made a mention to me about these two guys who were shoving their friend to my bench. okay, so they were making fun of him. when we walked out, though, we went by him and he was like *tap tap*, "you okay?" so i nodded and walked off. and on my way out, along the rink walls [the ones with the glass windows] i heard bangs. and quite apparently, his friends were pushing him against the windows all along the wall until we walked out of the rink. we had a good laugh. poor guy. boosted my esteem a little to know that i'm not going around invisibly.

or it could all be my imagination. haha. *winks*

ice-skating on the whole was very nice. i learned how to skate backwards. though still not the cross-over kind, it's at least a proper swivel. need to brush up on it slightly. NATSUKI!!! i've finally chased up to you!!! mou, next time you come back, we go ice-skating, ne?

but felt a little guilty about that little trip to the rink. i mean, i could've made it in time for the second half of practice at pa and i didn't. justification? i have pa practices every week. i get to meet my cousins twice a year. [granted. now that i'm enrolled in hcj, i'll get to see jason pretty much often. and sharon's just opposite in nanyang.]

but still.

haha.








"i am the Phantom, the Ghost Who Walks, in the dorm, in class, all around the school. people don't notice i exist anymore."

oh yeah. happy new year, minna-san.

today totally disappointed me. it was rather boring... and very warm. and when you're restless, the seat tends to get warmer, quicker. guess it was the anticipation of school tomorrow. stress: was. sounds pretty boring actually, after shieh yuan broke down for me the schedule for tomorrow. so basically, tomorrow and monday will be academic orientation. the HCJ school badge and the confirmed subject combination will only be given to us on tuesday, when we will be grouped into orientation groups to carry on with the rest of orientation. i'm not sure about the details, so i'm checking it out now.

the day ah... food, then internet, then piano, then FF7, then food. and finally, now, internet again. super lethargic. and ultra warm. wonder how much IR radiation is occuring in the room now. the heat...

and the topic bounces back to school. just realised that the orientation plan shieh yuan quoted me was modelled after last year's calendar of events... let's pray the school decides to break the tradition and do something different. [muse: and the probability of that being 1/300 000?] but it's god lah. get all the boring session talks done with first.

hm... tomorrow will still be wearing school uniform from RGS. then dunno whether must wear school badge or not. but for the aesthetic value, i think i should. imagine a blank pinafore... eww. no nametag, no badge. then when we get the hwa chong school badge, it'll be on the collar, and then, it'll really have to be a blank pinafore. sigh. think i'll really miss the chicken rice uncle from far east.

but this is a good chance to start anew. i've been irresponsible. i've been procrastinating. i've been a more or less problematic student. so this is a chance to make new impressions, take a change in attitude. i like to think that if i put my effort in something, i'll be able to do it well. this time, this efort is going to go into all of my subjects. even math. yes, even math.

i don't have that much against math, really. it's a nice subject. i like the classes. it's just the homework. hence, i resolve to do all of my math homework, as much as time allows. and i resolve to make time for homework. i will try my best to socialise and be on at least regularly talking terms with most of my class. afterall, it's always good to have a few more sources for anything.

oh, oh. and i resolve to get fitter and gain a little weight to pull out of this underweighty problem. haha.

actually, there was a line of thought that floated through my head today. quite depressing. but it's still something to think about. have it ever occured to you that your presence may be redundant? i mean. if you'd ceased to exist, your friends can always find a replacment. your teachers go on teaching the class. the principals don't mind. maybe all you matter to is your family. i wonder if anyone every goes out of the way to leave an impression or make a difference. and i mean anyone.

besides me that is. and i'm already being rather selective. and sometimes you feel like giving up. maybe it's just my attention-seeking tendencies. but hey man, is YOUR presence redundant?

haha. a rather lousy change of topic. and one i'll rather not harp on. thankfully it was just a fleeting thought on a boring afternoon. this sort of thing can send someone into depression man.

all in all. today's been a restless, bland and warm day, i hope tomorrow is better.







"in the darkness of the night,
i could hear the walls creak
in the corridor.
and the doors shuffle past me,
one by one,
and splashes of dim dusk on the floor.
pale pools of light that fall apart
as it all grinds shut around me."

downloading the advent children trailer from meishi now... the connection speed is sloooooooooooooooooow... maybe not that slow, but the file is like, 21 megs. oh, oh. go visit it at adventchildren.net. it's a nice page with pretty nice layouts... maybe it's just the background and the banner, and the layout's simple... but still. haha, go check it out man. and sephiroth is so cool. most people seem to think that the short haired bishounen [the second one in the top row... pity i can't link directly to the image] is not sephiroth, but the evilness, oh man... but if he is not, maybe it is a blessing in disguise, for then, we fangirls will have yet another bishounen to drool over. haha.

okay, fine, so she cut the connection coz she wants to continue her FF VII... so... i don't get my file tonight. fine with me... really. *pouts*

haha, don't really have stuff top talk about. today was just a shopping-for-shoes day. ended up seeing a few pairs i like with none of them having my size. why oh why does the ladies' cut shoes have to end at size 7.5???*mutters mutters* *stares at size 8 feet*

tml is new year's eve. so fast. marks the end of a two months long school hols. or one and a half months, for the sec fours, j2's and primary school students. a new school term is starting soon.

GAMBATTE, minna!



countdown of two more days til school reopens.







"it seems he's too powerful still, like a radioactive cloud, finding his dark way into everything." ----- haha, seems to be referring to sephiroth. and maybe cloud has a sub-meaning to it...

nothin much to say today, so going to be a short post. and the day started... at nine a.m... not too bad for recent records. went for a haircut. wanted a sotong head kind of zao4 xing2, but coz my hair ain't dyed the effects were not that obvious. anyway, my hair now, coz of the cut and the trim and what not, my hair looks and feels quite thin. basically, it's just a normal ruffled-short-hair cut with a longer thinner layer of hair emerging from beneath it. something like the previous hair syle, but with more short hair and less long hair... and looks like lesser hair on the overall...

bought some of that Gatsby hair wax. it says that it creates a just-out-of-bed look more easily. good for trying to make the sotong tails more obvious. bought it on a shopping spree with my mum and brother this afternoon. got a new wallet [used the old one for about six years... the fabric wearing damn thin le... but gonna miss it so...] and some stationary. all pink. shudder. wonder what got into me. lately i noticed i've gotten into a madness of bright colours. yellow. orange. red. pink. green. blue. yellow. orange... scary.

haha. school term's starting. hope i can start on a clean slate with the teachers. erm. i'll take that back. i always start out leaving great impressions on the teachers... but they always wear thin. this is the fourth year that i'm making this resolution of doing homework. hope it ain't like any of the past years when it didn't hold out. and i wonder. if i'm not ostracised in the JC, will i get used to life? but i prolly will get it lah, after sometime, not that it makes any difference. i trust my adaptability.

tomorrow i'm going shopping for school shoes with meishi-san. can imagine shopping with meishi... haha, the last time i did that, she started complaining halfway... but we're shopping for school shoes... and since she understands that different shops in queensway shopping centre gives different prices, and we've got a budget to keep, it shouldn't be that bad right? actually, i'm kinda looking froward to it. hardly shop with her. *lol*







"i make people uncomfortable. the kind ones get angry because their kindness doesn't work. the unkind ones get angry because they think i'm attacking them."

the day started at twelve noon... gosh, this is getting to be a habit, sleep late, wake late and still get less than seven hour's sleep... haha.

not feeling very happy at the moment. feels like a cool [semi-cold] war just took seige between tess and i. can't say it's not my fault, so i shall cease to comment on that.

was planning to make the photoshoot a sequel to a good cosplay event, but turned out that organisation by yours truly was a flop and nearly zero people can make it due to stuff like costumes in the wash, if she's not turning up then i won't and what not. haiz... gomen minna, for all the night calling and the late notice though. really sorry.

so, woke up at twelve, then went for lunch at sembawag shopping centre at the thai restaurant there. the pineapple rice not as nice as the food court one though, but the food court's closed for renovation. the building looks great after the renovation and the Giant's Supermarket currently occupies more than half the floor space or the first floor and the entire basement one too, i think.

then i went to meishi's place to basically slack. there was supposed to be a gumi 'outing' but ended up only huishan, me and duh, meishi, turned up... then huishan had to leave not too long after i reached her place. so ended up, after a trip to tian di man hua dian, then to comics connection, me and meishi went back and spent the rest of the time between four thirty to eight o'clock playing FF VII.

then got home, at nearly nine, had dinner, bathed and came online to blog and chat.

then now, my mum's back, so i'll prolly have to roll [gun3, geddit?] off to sleep.

ta-ta.

p.s. the quote below is my one of my favourites from the book. very nice. in fact, my msn nick is currently an excerpt from it. very nice metaphors... or so i feel lah.






"i can't describe the feeling when i go down -- it's down down down and there's never going to be an up again. and whatever was good isn't good anymore; white becomes grey, music becomes dictionaries, honey becomes beer and the sky a curdled lemon. there's no caramel anymore."